New Day

TOday is a hard day. My mom it seems, tries to put me down at every golden oportunity. I thought shed be happy that i was offered to play a solo on my violin. NO! she said i sucked, she said i was horrible. and she said the only reason i sounded good before was because i was playing with other people. She also said that she was way better than me. Everytime! Every time i try to do something, my mom is behind telling me i suck. Why can't she see that im trying? Why can't i do something i love? Im not that bad... Im not. I know im not Bach, but, Lord, why wont she leave me alone??? and let  me live my own life??? For some reason, it didn't bother her when i did solos before, why does it bother her now??? WHY??? She is so mean to me sometimes. She is telling me one second to do whatever i want the next, shes telling me to not play the solo. What do i do??? I wish she wasn't such 2 sided with everything. Should i respect her wishes and not do the solo? or should i do it and shock her??? To show her how good i truly am???

 

 

Please help me.